I only asked to be protected. I wanted to be protected by a man. A man who wants to be here with me and I with him.
My heart hurts so badly with the agony of not being wanted. I’ve had many of men to fulfil many of my desires, and the feeling of being protected always come to play of this very void.
The feeling of them only want to blow me and enter my jewel box. I want to be loved, desired, and understood.
I want to build. I want to grow with the love of my life.
I’ve being consistent in building my nest. The one thing people don’t understand is consistency will take you to places you could never imagine.
I know! I know! I have God to protect me.
Being single has been a challenge for me. I hate being by myself. I have know one to make memories with. I have know one to make little moments to make lifetime memories. When I have a bad day I have no safeheaven. When I need someone to take up for me, I have know one to protect me.
I know I have God to protect you. I just want to be loved without conditions.
About Me
One day, I woke up and decided to share my thoughts.
What began as a quiet release became a rhythm — and eventually, a calling.
My name is Ethel Rene’e Darnell, a fourth-generation Oaklander rooted in history, resilience, and perspective. I’ve been blogging since 2018, using my platform as a space to reflect, question, process, and tell the truth — even when it’s uncomfortable.
I am the mother of a remarkable 35-year-old son and the proud grandmother of a brilliant 12-year-old granddaughter. Watching two generations grow in real time has deepened my understanding of legacy, responsibility, and the power of example. Motherhood shaped me. Grandmotherhood refined me.
Travel stretches my thinking and feeds my soul. In 2019, I explored Haiti, Spain, France, and Italy — each country imprinting something different on my spirit. Still, no matter how far I journey, I always return to the water. The ocean restores me. Its rhythm reminds me to breathe, to trust, to release.
I hold a Master’s degree in Public Administration with a specialization in Public Management and Policy Analysis. Strategy lives in my mind. Storytelling lives in my heart.
This blog is where those worlds meet.
Here, I write about personal reflection, social issues, business insight, mindset shifts, caregiving, growth, and the untold stories that often go unheard. I don’t write for noise. I write for clarity. I write because words have power — to heal, to disrupt, to awaken, and to connect.
This is not just a blog.
It’s lived experience.
It’s perspective earned over time.
It’s truth — unfiltered.
Welcome to my world.
I’m grateful you’re here.
Ethel Mindset 