In the beginning of a relationship. I think most of us pump who we are up. We cover things, discussions, and who we are underneath as a protective shield.

We go with the flow, ignoring red flags. We weight the red flags with blinders. We cover the red with the green.

When you mix red and green, you typically get an unappealing shade of brown. Because green is a combination of yellow and blue, combining it with red is equivalent to combining all three major colors, which will also lead to brown.

Whom, not to many things come to mind when I think of anything covered up. When you cover something or someone up, you put something over them in order to protect or hide them.

We hide the truth from outsiders. The temperament, the lies that you identified as lies, and the disrespect. Not to mention the bloody fights. The complications.

People see you standing. But, your soul is missing a piece of peace.

The cover up of pain, hurt, and defeat. The defeat of knowing you are more. More then the yelling, humiliation, and embarrassment.

Now let’s not talk about the pretending. Pretending to be what the other person need to make them happy, complete, or whole. While in the inside of your soul screams run, leave, and move on. This season have ended.

Immediately, your reminded of the space you were in prior to being with this person. The space of having no companion ship, know one to talk to on a daily, and no one to bounce ideas off. No one to remind you of the essence of your beauty.

Reality kicks in. You soon discover. You’ve lost who you are. You forget your living in a reality that’s not really your own reality. You begin to think how you were so busy making sure the other person was good. You forgot about you. The person in the mirror.

You realize you haven’t looked in the mirror. You’ve only faced past the mirror. Why? Because you’ve been so busy trying to make others happy.

Guess what its time to breathe. It’s time to let go. It’s time to set boundaries.

Sometimes you just have to let go.. letting go hurts, its hard, and some days your going to feel like you can’t breathe. But, you have to remember this to shall past. You have to remind yourself to create a new affirmation to make yourself whole again.

Sometimes we find ourself in spaces we are not ready for.